I have been wincing at the past description I've written here for the past few months, and I felt that it is about time I write a proper new description.
As you can see, I am quite inactive. I plan to rejoin deviantart through a different account, but as I am quite busy getting out of what I like to call "homework debt", this will be a stop-gap solution for now.
Through my experiences since Deviantart, I have learned a lot more about myself, including self control and discipline. I've finally been able to spot (my own) corrupt behaviour that my brain kept excusing as "likable": I tried acting like a cute child, because I thought it would make people like me, even though it was not who I wanted to be at all. It turned out this only upset people even more, which motivated me to question whether it was necessary to act such way: As a result, I've finally made some steps backwards, and I have returned to the mature sensible self that was there before I settled here. I've become much more mindful of what I say, and I find myself writing and deleting my messages over and over. I feel like there's a barrier that prevents me from talking to those who I've previously talked to so often, in fear of re-sparking my obsessive vices.
Despite all of this, I am nothing but inspired to start a new beginning sometime in the future.
I will still keep this account here because I like to keep a trace of my milestones: Regardless of how much we may wince (cringe) about something we have done or made in the past, it is that guilt that allowed us to learn and innovate, and change ourselves for the better good. In other words, your mistakes are what help establish progress.
Now when I say that, I could imagine it almost sounds as if I'm trying to say "you should make as many mistakes as possible and be proud of all of them", but this is not the case: what I mean, is that if you happen to make mistakes, you may feel like you hurt yourself in the short-term, but in the long-term that one mistake may have prevented many worse mistakes. So take pride of all your milestones, even those which you may consider "cringeworthy", for they are what brought you here, to be the wonderful being you are today.